nothing has ever worked as planned, for me

I simply failed to cope with this new "atmosphere". To my surprise, it's actually too much to ask from self to at least lead a normal life for once and stop over-thinking things. I know I'm being pathetic and everything people would describe me as, but seriously, is it a crime to just be yourself? Why is it that people around me are becoming like some sort of alien version of themselves which they once told me not to be? Well, that was what I assumed they wanted to tell me, 'cause obviously it's hard to be straightforward. Nothing's easy in life, eh? lol what, that's ridiculous. I found it easy to look stupid.