hi so can i just say this? i have my own solid reasons to why i did those things. thought it'd be better that way. i even feel better tbh. i used to think that it's better to treat people nicely even when they treat you like shit. well, yeah, used. i don't think it works that way any more. people tend to take advantage on weaker people (like me) and they think it's actually okay to play around with my feelings. and, yeah i think it's annoying to keep on blabbering here. period. okbai gonna go on a mental date with ruhan.