crushed in between

Hi hello.

Trial result is out. I was expecting it to be my worst but alhamdulillah it's not. Or so I think. Probably because I thought I'd flunk Add Maths but haha I didn't :) Funny thing is that I was only like a few marks away from failing... and that was when I begin to regret not being thankful for my constant C's for Add Maths :( Ugh life. Got 6A2B1Ewww tbh. If it's not for the Ewww I would've nailed one of the Top 10 spots T_T It's okay because haha if you were around during my study time (if studying 12 hours before the paper starts can be considered as studying) you would've been mad at me sebab tak bersyukur. Hm future doctor ke macam ni -.-

Anyway, I wasn't supposed to blog right now but welp writing being emo is in the blood so it's been hard staying away from my blog. I've been particularly inactive on Facebook and Twitter and other social networks I joined because I need to study lol joke, because I think it's time. I definitely feel odd living my days without lurking around on the net. I finally have some space to breathe in normal air; free from hatred, jealousy, angst and, you name them. I told Ibu to scold me if she ever sees me in front of the computer but all I got was

"...cuba kawal diri tu sendiri."

aaaand I guess I succeed :) But I tend to lock myself up in my room every now and then though, staring at the walls, probably wanting them to swallow me up... or talk to me... or something. Good thing I didn't end up with a note saying "goodbye, cruel world", ey?

Wah, tahniah, I died a little inside. Best tak jadi kau?

Aku: Yang didukung tak dapat, yang dikendong berciciran.
Kau: Beruk siku.

Fair enough. Dua dua fail BM. Heh.