i knew the date

Please don't get me wrong. It's not that I don't like you. I think I like you... in some sort of magical, utterly odd ways. Not for what you have but for what you are. Thanks for inspiring me all this while yep even without you realising it but I'm sorry, sometimes I hate you out of no reason. Not pure hate though, don't worry. I just hate you because we aren't yet friends. Eh, we are but we aren't really? I hate you because of what you have and what I don't have. I hate you because I somehow feel attached to you. I hate you because of the debts. I hate you because of the thing I used to own. In a nutshell, I hate myself.

ps help, I feel gay.