I actually see myself as someone who's overly attached to the past and that has made me bizarrely addicted ok not sure if that's the correct word but yea I kinda feel addicted to pain it's like when I'm not in pain, I purposely play a sad song or any song that well MAY or MAY NOT be someone's favourite a long time ago so that it'll hit me like a truck. So that my heart breaks into pieces for having flashbacks of the memories with the people whom I no longer talk to. So that I'll end up crying. So that in the end, I'll have no one but myself to blame. Is this normal?
But well thank Allah for everything because I planned to go through that phase again last night because hha I was obviously stupid but to my surprise, our old conversations were all gone. All of them. I was devastated and relieved at the same time how do I even-
Now what do I do when there's nothing else to do lol
