Okay so I remember walking back home after meeting them because I've always liked the fact that I was gonna be left alone with my own thoughts during that whole journey, never mind the people passing by me I knew none of them would interrupt my precious date with something not human. I was the type of person who'd always opt to keep my feelings bottled up because I've always believed it'd be easier that way. I still am that person, though. It was almost dark when I reached home; an impeccable timing for an emotionally sensitive girl to have all the time in the world to herself. I immediately ran upstairs, got into my room and yes I cried after mercilessly being attacked by a shit load of indescribable emotions at the same time! No, nobody actually did anything to me. Funny thing is that THAT was probably the exact reason why I was utterly upset on that day. Because nobody did anything I expected them to do. By nobody I meant somebody by somebody I mean someone kot I'm not sure hahaha. Bye.
Hi. Later that day I called a good friend of mine. We were supposed to talk about something but I got constantly distracted by flashbacks of what had happened earlier so I might have sounded like I wasn't in the mood to talk. He noticed about that so he asked me if something is wrong. I wanted to say yes but what can I do I couldn't just answer his question without unleashing the inner typical girl side of me, so I said no. Instead of telling me off and do what most people (boys) would do —buat tak tahu— he defied the odds and said "tak apalah kalau tak nak bagitahu pun.", before adding it's okay if I want to cry to him and that he'll be there for me. I am not just labelling him a good friend of mine without any reason. I have a solid reason why :) A friend in need is a friend, indeed.
I wish everyone could understand me and my silence like he could.
