tak sangka one can get so used to the absence of a person; so used to missing them, up to the point where one can be oblivious of what one is currently feeling, so one forgets one's actually missing someone because it starts to feel as if that's the most normal thing to do in the world. like when you're breathing but you're not really all the time aware that you're constantly inhaling and exhaling air because you're used to doing it. like how our noses are actually all the time visible to our eyes but our brains choose to ignore it and only see everything but the nose. i don't know where i am going but... i know what will happen when one suddenly remembers one's actually feeling.
and by the time that happens, nothing else can be done but to suffer and embrace the pain. alone?
yes, alone
for the time being.
level mundane of hidup sekarang ni tahap tak boleh nak describe oh. so
